I AM NOT A MORMON!!!!!

So I have been a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints for almost three years now and I have loved every second of it. I love the people,the doctrine,the feeling I get when I walk into the chapel and know that my spirit is about to be lifted. As I have studied the doctrine(baptisms for the dead) I decided that is something I wanted to do that for all of my family members who have passed on. I chose one name and for the past three years I have prayed and fasted about that name and have even sent that name to the Temple twice. For some reason her name never makes it there. The first Saturday in May all of the women in Relief Society had a garden party. The food was great and the sisterhood was amazing!!!! After lunch was served we were asked to meet in the next room to make a craft. We had each been asked to bring a picture of a deceased loved one to share and to make an ornament.I made mine with attention to details and even added a yellow button to it. I wanted mine to be extra special because she was extra special ( I know that all of the photos hung on that tree are special)
On my way home I prayed again for an answer and I asked her if she wanted me to take her name to the Temple and anyone who knows about prayer knows that the answer doesn't always come right then. My prayer certainly did not get an answer right then but I got my answer the next day. I walked in the Relief Society room and there was a beautiful white Christmas tree with the faces of those who have passed on smiling at me. I could not find my picture,it had fallen off the tree. I knew right then that she is not ready and that it is time for me to focus on another name. Tears filled my eyes not because I was sad or hurt because I am not I cried because I had finally recieved my answer. I now know that we ALL have free agency even on the other side. I wanted to do her work so much but I know in my heart shes not ready yet but when and if she ever is I hope I am worthy to do her work.